its ended. but who care's. maybe its better this way?
but definitely not for me. without her by my side. i'm so uneasy. and i detest everyone, everything around me.
though ppls talk bad abt her. but i seriously dun give a FUCK abt it.
i duno wad the fuck is wrong with me. its like. so many other good girls for me to choose. y i wan her?
i dun even know dat myself.
i'm starting to get sicked of everything. especially SCHOOL, 2nd, home, 3rd, relationship.
y cant u understand how i feel abt you?
i'm true abt u. my feeling is true for u.
instead of playing u. i love u.
is this retribution? if it is. i can say dat i deserve it.
cos u gave me realise the pain which all the girls i've once played.
u let me know how they feel. and u let me know how pain it is.
i can tell u this. its pain enough to kill me.
i feel so stress up without u.
i feel so helpless without u.
i feel so fuck up abt everything without u.
wadever i do, i failed, cos all along. everything is abt u.
i lied is because i'm lying to myself.
i lied so that maybe like this i can live longer.
i lied so that maybe i'll be happier.
i lied so that maybe i'll forget abt u.
i lied so that maybe i'll not feel so stressed.
i lied so that maybe without you i can get to do more things.
BUT NO ! ! ! WHAT-EVER I'VE LIED TO MYSELF DIDNT CAME TRUE.
INSTEAD OF LETTING MYSELF MORE HAPPIER. I MAKE MYSELF MORE SAD.
everything went the other way round.
ya i know. its my fault for lying. but is thr any other choice i can make?
i wan u to be happy. cos u urself alr said that u're happy like this.
but i myself is suffering. do you know that?
guess everything just go so wrong.
maybe things wont even back to be the way it is.
maybe we wont even have the chance to get back together.
its all depend on you. cos u have all the last decision.
sigh! I'M GOING CRAZY OVER YOU ! ! ! !
; Its All About You, My Love